hmm, i doesnt have any mood in making this post to be more lively. so is will be jus that plain. u may not like this post, how it look so u can jus click the red X button on the top right hand corner now. BYE.

uh hmm, i felt like so stupid yst. i cried for so many times? in a single day. when they were having re-audition,is still fine within me. i talk to ruby,alrd like wan to cry alrd. but then i nv. i managed to control it. then practice. i am separated with wip darling. T.T im really sad..

then choir end, didnt eat dinner with ms ong cos i got tuition also. D: then walked home with yeechin. and this is where i suck. we were walking real slow. really slow until u find the traffic light timing goes so fast. haven even move two steps few seconds gone alrd. -.- we were talking about alot of stuffs. then at first,i was like jus having a few tears,but then i dunno why suddenly i jus cried in front of yeechin. gawd,i didnt really broke down there. cos after awhile i stop crying. and i reached home. ran to the toilet to change and i cry awhile there. then i think im going to be real late if i dun eat dinner. so went out after washing my face,ensure mum wont know im crying. then ate dinner. and then i told vanessa and andy to go up first,cos wanna walk with mum and aso to buy food. then i finally reach tuition place. i totally have No NO NO mood to go tuition at that moment. and wad the world is that i actually broke down there.. why am i so vulnerable these few days? i cant stand it. am i that fragile?

this year,i totally become another person. i become someone that got alot of different personalities? i am a different person in 3e4. when i get out of that class,with my really true and best frends,i turn into another person. when i am at home,im aso different. am i having split personalities? I SUCK at everything!!!!!!! and i actually told my mum i wan to quit school. i doesnt wan to study like a mad person alrd. i wan a break. really a break. u ppl might be saying , can wad, march hols coming alrd... but i know something, I NEVER ONCE HAD A REAL SCHOOL HOLIDAY EVER SINCE I STEPPED INTO THIS SCHOOL. school holidays are even more busy than my study days! cos there will be like a pile of hmk for u to finish in the hols. i dun understand why? term break,they say is a break,for us to rest. but hey, they are giving hell lot of hmk and expect us to finish, do they think we really stay at home and jus glaze in the ceiling? we have lifes too rite? and i dun mind going to choir cos i like to be a chorister. is fun.... i dun mind singing the whole full day. but the prob is i doesnt wan to come back after choir and is look at the mountain high hmk, and jus -_______________- at it..