PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE

hahas, i just went to look at my archives. those posts that i wrote when i was sec1. HAHAHA. i feel like laughing when i read those posts. it shows how immature i am that time. still a child. not that i have grow old or something, but i can see that last time, my posts is all in SINGLISH/SLANG'/SHORTFORMS etc. is like just aiyoh, i dun like alrd. i changed alot. i am trying to type in a proper english manner. :) Come to think of that, i dont even understand what i was writing when i was in sec1. WOW. i cant rmb why i wrote those alrd. When i read it, i just feel like laughin and thinking how come im so childish at that time. but i think, i would rather stay at those days where i dun feel the stress like im feeling now. hmm, time to get over it alrd. :) move on. hehes

Passion
today, english lesson, Mdm Premela suddenly asked us about our Passion. she asked us, have our passions die? Because she went to look at our results and our results are not that good. hmm,somehow i feel that my passion for science is dying soon. my passion for studying is dying soon. i am still trying to motivate myself into studying studying! but, sometimes i just kinda find that why am i making myself so stress and my frends are always playing and carefree? hmm, this is the question i asked myself. But i told myself that my motive for studying in this stream is only for a better life in my future. BUT, am i still able to have my dream to be fulfilled? hahaha, im starting to question myself alrd.

Present
i want to just focus and study now. but why am i losing focus? i don't know why but sometimes, i will actually stare and BLANK OUT. -.- im wierd rite? hahas, i dunno why too. i just starting to make sure i can tahan everyday tests tests tests and hmk hmk hmk. hmm,somehow i can feel the stress coming out of me. Maybe im a typical singaporean? Because i seem to be giving myself too much stress. OR should i say, somehow i feel that my parents dun really care about my results. they dun come to me and tell me i have to get wadeva position, or have to get how many As. Instead, is i myself giving all these expectations. and i often feel that i have not sastify any of my expectations. hmm, maybe some space should be given to myself.

TIME OUT.
"take a break, have a kit-kat."
hahaha, i wish i could. but recently these amt of time i am left to study is so little. i cant rest at all. i have so many things not revised yet. but hey, why is teachers pushing us so hard? they are making us having so many tests in one single day. and today, we had, bio,ss,geog. woah, do u know that after geog test, my mind is in a complete blank. i do not know what im doing/thinking. after having my cells squash with bio,ss and geog. i have to make them get lost and put in my amaths,physics and english for tml tests. hahaha, sometimes i find myself getting more and more random and crazy. i guess, i am in another stage of my life now. hmmm,lets wait and see the new chapter of "brand new Coke"! :D