i dun understand.

i've been like having a wierd wierd feeling for quite a long time. and this wierd wierd feeling is making me sad,emo,moody and wadeva shit that i just feel so wierd. i dun understand why im having this feeling. its damn irritating luh! i hate this feeling. and i dun get it why i will have this feeling. its making me distracted.

now my seating arrangement is at the back. right at the end of the class. END. im the last one. -.- so far end can! but nvm luh. im getting my new specs so i can see so much clearer soon. hahah! :D and anyway in my class sitting at the right back is not that back luh. i feel quite alone there. cos i dun have anyone to talk to?! so im more of like alone studying/doing hmk. hmm,its just me maybe.. im quite used of being at the back. i just hate the fact that im short and still at the right back. and all those freaking tall ppl infront. I ADMIT im short okay. im just fat,ugly and SHORT. i accept this fact, this reality. i dun wan to avoid the reality. i know that i cant wear any nice nice clothes becos im fat. im just like this. i cant help it too right! argh,forget it. let me be alone then. im so much of used to it alrd. not many ppl will care about me aso.