OUCH!

today went to have the injection. hahahas,it was quite pain luh. but still not tat pain. its like a sting. hahah! then had breakfast/lunch and went to cheryl house to study. study half way, we went to sleep. LOL. we slept at 12.48pm woke up at 1.45pm. hahah! then continued study until 4pm when my mum asked me to go home.

it is jus 7 more days to me flying to shanghai. i miss alot of u. hahaha,although i know some wont even miss me. D: i hope on 23may, after that maths trail,we go walk and shop and watch movie! hahas,but i know that is not going to happen. hopefully cheryl comes luh. unless she going out with her frends. hees. :D

tml is the last paper! LAST PAPER! yipeeeee. hahah, and i dun wan to see my papers on wed and thurs. im afraid i will get the results not to my expectations. i dun wan to see my physics fail. I DUN WAN. D: i dun wan anything to fail. i cant stand a stupid grade that is C6 and below. i cannot take it one. i think i need to change my mindset. but i still cant take it if i got c6 and below in my HRC. i think u will find me emo the whole day or mayb i will cry. argh,i hope i wont. D:

am i too harsh to myself? but i dun think so. bt i still hate competition. i miss lower sec life. in my class,where i can just carefree and study and still able to do moderately well. no stress one. but now, omg, the stress level is like 1000000000000000000000 times more can. D: hmm,mayb i shud relax myself. nonono, given my this kind of poor results i cant. must work harder! but it seem so hard sometimes. i broke down twice this year. wth, i never even broke down for my past study years can. and yet i broke down twice this year alrd. =,=

i think im too vulnurable alrd. u people might be thinking that i shouldnt even cry. i know i shouldnt. but sometimes i think its okay. i dun care about anything alrd. i believe i will wear a STRONG face mask everytime i see u people. hahah,i think i should. NICOLE is not going to be BEATEN DOWN by this freaking irritating stress monster. SHE WILL DEFEAT IT! MUAHAHAHAH!

okay, i seriously agree to some of my frends that im being abit toooooooo CRAZY nowadays. erm,being too random,too lame and too crazy. im really changing?? hahah,im becoming a more lame,random and crazy person alrd. nvm, cheryl will be with me. hahaha! :DD